Review of the Week#
A sense of fear has always occupied a part of my heart. Whenever I try to achieve a certain goal, this fear intensifies and holds me back, making me feel helpless. I think the reason for this fear is the lack of positive feedback. Fantasizing about not caring about others' opinions is unrealistic. In reality, what I need the most is affirmation from others. I don't need to test myself like Raskolnikov and accept the fact that I am an ordinary person. All this pain and torment constantly remind me of this. So it's time to seek reconciliation with myself, to stop setting goals that can never be achieved, and to stop forcing myself to do things I don't want to do. When necessary, seek help from others, try to build deeper relationships with others, and build self-confidence. But this does not mean that pleasing others should be the goal. After understanding the importance of positive feedback, the first thing I need to do is to realize my own value, put myself in a peaceful and open mindset, be willing to understand and update my ideas, and then provide value to others. Considering the current situation, I will first make efforts in being able to handle negative feedback, gradually achieve the goal of obtaining positive feedback, and then gain the confidence to make changes. This week, I am trying to create and learn in these two aspects.
Explorations of the Week#
Work and Study#
Logseq Task Automation is my effort in an open-source project. Many of its new features are ideas that came to me during actual usage. Thinking of and implementing these ideas gives me great satisfaction, and it is the motivation for me to continue updating this project. Of course, the lack of feedback from others is frustrating, but that's not my fault, right? I have done well enough.
Another project in the Design Thinking stage is also in progress, using the knowledge and skills I have just learned to define and implement my own ideas. If completed, it will be a good reflection of the results of my self-study, and it is also the motivation for me to continue learning.
Next week, I will continue with such attempts.
Travel#
On Sunday, I went out for a day trip. This time, I was not traveling alone, and being with others gave me more motivation and courage to try new things during the journey. With the company and support of others, I can now do things that I didn't dare to do alone. Such opportunities should be cherished. This kind of communal experience, which transcends language communication, may be the best way of communication I can offer at the moment.