To answer this question, first you need to know why I started writing weekly reports in the first place. Looking back now, the reason I wrote weekly reports was largely influenced by Pseudoyu. As a reader, I was deeply moved by his weekly reports, which connected his inner journey. His sincere thoughts and expressions gave me great strength and encouragement. So, at the beginning of the year, I wrote my first weekly report. The writing process was extremely painful for me, as if squeezing words out of a flattened brain. It was so difficult to grasp the elusive thoughts in my mind and express them. However, after finishing writing, although there were always unsatisfactory parts, being able to write down my thoughts and ideas was a satisfying process for me. In this way, I wrote 11 consecutive weekly reports and wanted to continue as a habit, but I interrupted it 2 weeks ago.
Why did I interrupt it? First of all, the past two weeks have been exhausting, and when it came time to write the weekly report, I just couldn't muster the energy. So, after two weeks of this, not writing the weekly report became a new habit for me. I also began to reflect on the act of writing weekly reports, and in the end, I decided to give up writing them.
Writing is definitely meaningful. I can feel that the more words I write, the more I can overcome the fear of writing and improve my ability to organize language. So even after not writing weekly reports, I will continue to write some blog content, but I don't want to continue in the form of weekly reports. Speaking of which, the main reason I gave up writing weekly reports is the format. As a summary of a period of time, its content revolves around a predetermined theme, which actually brings a lot of problems. The first is the difficulty of organizing words. I set a template for the weekly report, but most of the time I just write randomly in the "weekly review" section. It's usually not a review of the current week, but just the things that were in my mind at that short period of time. Gradually, I started treating writing them as tasks with deadlines, as if I would miss something if I didn't finish writing them, which put pressure on me. In such situations, most of the time I couldn't fully express what I wanted to express, and such content is meaningless. Weekly reports are not suitable for me, daily thoughts should just be recorded as daily records.
The original content of this article was the explanation of why I gave up writing weekly reports. However, before truly giving up, I made up my mind to look at what I had written before, and then I changed my mind and turned this final issue of the weekly report into a new one.
I am amazed at how poor my memory is. In just a few days, I forgot about my past self who was so determined, until I saw these past words. Looking at it this way, it seems that I am hopeless, constantly forgetting, remembering, and then forgetting again. This daily cycle in life has no meaning at all. But do I not want to change? Providing an opportunity for change, I think this is the greatest significance of writing for me. As an anchor in life, I have always been writing with this purpose in mind. Regardless of whether there are readers or whether the words have value, as long as one day in the future, when I read these words, I can realize that I used to live like that, that is enough. And the format of the weekly report is a binding of life and time, even though they always remind me of the brevity of life, it is the only way I try to grasp life.
Of course, the problem with the weekly report still exists. Next, I will gradually adjust the format of content organization and explore the way that suits me best. The most important thing is that I need this kind of content to constantly remind myself of the passage of time and the brevity of life... even if it's something I don't want to see, I must continue to persist, believing that all of this has meaning, believing in the possibility of change.
Let's encourage each other.